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Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

I really don’t regret anything that I have done in the past, I mean there have been stupid things that I’ve done but… I don’t regret them? Made me the person I am today.

But anyways, if I have to pick 6… I wish I:

1) Didn’t ignore the warning light to check my tire the first time it lit up. Tire popped while on highway which made me stop on the side which got me almost killed AND have my car totaled. If you’re wondering it really wasn’t my fault, this time at least. But it’s all good :) new perspective on life and new car. Love my baby <3

2) Didn’t give up on writing our wishes in the bottle. AGH we suck at traditions. In fresh year me and helen started writing wishes that are stored in pills in a message bottle every semester, but we kind of stopped junior year… We were going to open them all up at end of high school.. Hm I don’t even remember what I wished for 4 years ago.

3) Didn’t do what I did on the new years eve of 2010. LOL. That was… a wreck hahaha. But todayyy I very much appreciate what that day gave me :)

4) Didn’t iron my beautifully expensive blazer. I can’t beat up my self all day on this one… WHAT WAS I THINKING FHDAS;LKJFD

5) Didn’t slack off to my happy land fresh and end of senior year… I really wish I didn’t. Sigh.

6) Didn’t… I don’t know anymore, all I can think of are things that I am greatful for that I have done.. That list will go on for forever, haha. So for the last one… How about, I wish I never doubted my self, my sixth sense, and never gave up on what I want. I know I’m not right all the time but that one I know I am right, well I was right. Too late now.

I don’t care what you say. But we’re over. What a shame, we were kind of perfect for each other.

But I can finally be myself again, so thank you for letting me go.
 

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1) Did I lock my car?

2) I’m need to lose weight.

3) What is he thinking.

4) What is she thinking.

5) What to do now that I have nothing to do.

6) Shoot I need to paint.

7) I want/ need new clothes.

These have been on my mind A LOT in the past week or two, well except for #7, that’s been on my mind a lot since forever ;)

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

You already know how. If you don’t you probably can’t.

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

My favorite color is white. Because it’s pure and simple, it reflect all the colors around it but always manage to stand out. But most importantly, color white matches with everything :)

In the fall of 2011 I’ll be heading to Cornell U in upstate NY, majoring in FSAD. I’m so afraid of the bitter cold winter and home sickness… I actually liked high school unlike many people. I don’t want to leave and enter the unknown. When did I become so intimidated by the future?

I want will be a fashion designer someday. My dream is to have my own label. I think I can make it as a designer… But just in case, I plan on going to graduate school for MBA. So if I fail at designing at least I can still be in the fashion world. Can’t imagine anything else.

Uh I don’t know how to put it in words… But I can always get this vibe from people and I just have a feeling of what their mood may be, and if I hear them talk or me or other people or something I can usually guess the situation/ problem right. I don’t know if that make sense at all lol. My friends are always like !? How did you know?? shrug* this is how.

I have been doing art since I was… I don’t even know. People always tell me I have a gift in painting/ drawing. I don’t particularly enjoy it though… Others that are hardcore can do it for hours a day, I often get bored and yeah… I am eternally grateful for this talent though :)

I danced for six years until I sprint my ankle really badly and doc said I can’t dance for a year, I just dropped it after that. I wish I picked it back up… Tragic.

Ummm… No more burnt orange hair after this weekend!

I have an adorable dog name Wall-E, he’s a pure blood Pomeranian with a rare wolf colored coat. He’s about to be one years old and I love him so so so much <3 He likes little rawhide bones and his pikachu toy. Oh and he likes to chase the bunnies in my backyard :)

I will NEVER hurt those that I love, but I CAN be vicious. If I want something I go and get it. I don’t believe in waiting around. I am patient, but my attention span is only so long.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

A. Haha, you’re my sunshine I love you <3 tough time lies ahead but you’ll get through :) I’ll be here, well actually far far away physically but mentally I will be here, for you. Don’t let the rose tinted glasses fool you, your happiness come from within your self, not anyone else.

B. The future is filled with uncertainty… espicially for you. But you know as well as I do that everything will be okay. if not great. Where ever you end up is where you’re supposed to be to experience what you’re supposed to experience. It really doesn’t matter what school you go to, instead of letting the school define you, be the person that the school is defined by. If anyone, you can do it..

H. It’s okay to be wrong. And it’s okay to let things so. I don’t know how to say it anyother way, but live for your self because no one can live it for you. We’re all about the decisions we make, and even if it’s the wrong ones, so what? At least we’re still young.

J. I hope you stay out of trouble from now on. Wait, never mind. Who am I kidding… I care about you but why don’t you care about your self? Stop making the same mistakes over and over. I haven’t given up on you :) helen called us platonic lovers hahahahha

K. When’s the last time I saw you? Yeah I don’t remember either. Which means… We need to hang out. You said you want to come here? Then do! Oh and in the summer I can help you with your portfolio or somehting :)

K. Well we ended awkwardly. Acutally that’s probably the way I’d end it too. Haha yeah it wasn’t ever going to work. She’s really pretty :)

L. Oh My Gosh. You’ve changed so much since first time I met you. We had our differences and our silly fights, but that’s in the past and I can’t wait to get to know the new you. This summer shall we? I think we make some damage and have lots of fun ;)

N. Steer clear of drama if you can avoid it and start forgiving… Sometimes things are not what they seem, I know it’s harder to tell form the inside but… I don’t think it’s worth it to end hs on such a bad note. Friends will always be friends, and you know she wouldn’t on you.

R. You can keep denying, or you can start accepting.

T. Can’t believe how we met and how we ended in such a short period of time. I like you, a lot. And I wish you find what you want eventually, weather it’s her or some one else. BUT most importantly, hope your proposal goes perfectly :)

ten day challenge

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession