c a n d y

ok i lied.

i didn’t finish my essay after the survey. surpriseee*

a novel caught my eye and i started reading it. (and i can’t finish because it won’t load anymore. agh.) the story is about a couple that has been together for ten years, but still divorced in the end because of a very very evil third person. i don’t know what happened in the end, i REALLY want to but.. seriously. i need to write my essays.

i have been writing for days not, literally doing nothing but writing. thinking, researching, typing, deleting, and re-typing. sigh* the art of procrastination.

i am seriously stressed out. no not only because of college apps, but about drawings, about deca, about friends, and about… boys.

hmm. it’s kind of funny how on all the critical points in my life (so far) something about boys always happen (good and bad i guess, but only bad ones comes to mind right now). and i find it kind of creepy how boys like ants come and go in a trail, all together. yeah, one week my inbox is empty the next six guys starts “talking.” weird.

but if anything i want to thank my dear ex. i learned a lot. girls need to believe that 90% of guys befriend you because they want to sleep with you. at least a little. of course the other 10% exist too, i have met a few :)

maybe because of that? i haven’t really been responding to guys wholeheartedly, i told my friend that some guys need to be played, tortured, and taught (puhaha i sound evil). i’m not a player though, haha no no, i’m a good girl that has quit drinking (kind of), maintain straight A’s, in top 2% and applying to ivy’s. thought i’m a party animal? haha wronggg.

but if you think i can BE played, lied to, or easily won over you’re even more wrong.

sorry thoughts were interrupted by a call. don’t want to write anymore so… kbye.

What’s your name?
➔ Candy
How tall are you?
➔ 5’4
What color are your eyes?
➔ dark brown
What color is your hair?
➔ dark brown
Are you Male or Female?
➔ female
What is your best physical feature?
➔ idk, legs? i have linear muscles hahhah
What’s your shoe size?
➔ 7
Glasses, yes or no?
➔ no
Did you ever have braces?
➔ yes
On a typical day you are wearing?
➔ no typical day for me? school probably shirt & jeans, other times high waist skirt & heels :)
When you go to bed you’re wearing?
➔ shirt or nothing
How often do you exercise?
➔ haven’t in a long time..

Name two of your favorite bands.
➔ cobra starship and white tie affair
Name two of your favorite singers.
   diana vickers and currently like mindy gledhill a lot
Name two songs you currently love.
➔ don’t know
Name one song that describes your life right now?
➔ not very happy today so the song i pick probably won’t describe my life. lol
Name one song that describes your life 1 year ago?
➔ hah. i miss you jyo :(
What are the preset stations in your car?
➔ 104.1, 95.7, 96.5, 97.9 but i dont listen to radio
What’s the last CD you bought?
➔ i don’t buy CDs. most recent download probably GD&TOP
Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix?
➔ woah, that was long time ago lol. a mix
Name one band you’re embarrassed to like but do?
➔ ummmm all the band that can’t really sing but i still like b/c they’re HOT dl;sakjf
If you could only attend 1 concert ever again, it would be?
➔ hm need to think about that.
Name one band or singer you absolutely can’t stand?
➔ there are songs, not band/singers
Name a group you use to like but feel you’ve grown out of?
➔ idk

Name your favorite actor?
➔ gerard butler?
Name your favorite actress?
➔ currently i like natalie portman. a lot.
Name your favorite television show right now?
➔ gossip girl
Name a really cool movie you have recently seen?
➔ i need to watch TRON :(
Your favorite canceled television show?
➔ O.C.
Name 1 movie you wish you hadn’t wasted time and money?
➔ lol too many.
You would never watch a movie with?
➔ is this supposed to be a person? idk
Three favorite tv channels?
➔ donno, don’t really watch tv
Favorite reality show?
➔ the city (kinda fake but what can i sayyy. i like the content)
Favorite character on a reality show?
➔ lol they’re not really real, not really. it’s a showw and they act

coffee-
➔ starbucks, and hm oddly enough-travis?, and sleepy.
dog-
➔ wall-e, dog park, shirtless guys.. wtf.
slut-
➔ haha someone comes to mind.
candy-
➔ ME
pole-
➔ dance, and liyuan running into a pole haha
ocean-
➔ galveston, cold, sitting in the sand with blanket and hot chocolate, prom night on the beach.
brave-
➔ bear, harry potter, prince charming with a sword, and.. cave?
loving-
➔ mommy, daddy, teacher, old nice gramma and paa
cookie-
➔ sweet, warm, happy, calories, fat.
death-
➔ college app, Jan 1, DECA, shopping, Feb 1, Parson, FIT, RISD, April…. i can go on all day
life-
➔ sucks, too much to do, too busy, too cramped, too…
child-
➔ annoying. innocent. happy.

Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects?
➔ lion
Skydiving from a plane OR Bungee jumping off a bridge?
➔ i think i’ll be scared to death of both. skydiving i guess
No television OR No music?
➔ no tv
No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever?
➔ hm. i don’t really need either. lols chocolate i guess
A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii?
➔ europe
An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one?
➔ :( lost loved one. future soul mate will be mine either way.
Sex without love OR love without sex?
➔ lols i can live with either

Are you currently in a relationship?
➔ hrm. not exactly.
Are you currently looking or interested in someone?
➔ always looking ;) haha and yes.
Are you a virgin?
➔ guess
If yes, how long do you plan to be one?
➔ guess again
How many times have you been in love?
➔ once
Looking back,how do you feel about that person now?
➔ :) thankful.
Name three physical things you look for in someone?
➔ tall, nice hair and… pretty nose (weird i know..)
Biggest turn offs include?
➔ um.. over enthusiastic, too easy
Your ideal date would be?
➔ i like surprises. i like the night scene. i like flowers. i like expensive restaurants. i like showing the world, then i like some privacy. :)
You want to get married, where, when, how?
➔ yes; beach, church, garden, or in the city idk; when at least he or i have a job; huge traditional wedding, followed by honeymoonnn
Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don’t return?
➔ honestly. yes.

The one you immediately go to with a problem?
➔ jyo
The most rational?
➔ anya
The funniest?
➔ helen
The one you spend the most time on the phone with?
➔ ALL together probably helen, then ryan? recently liyuan
The craziest?
➔ only when me and helen are together
The most honest?
➔ all my bffs are honest, to me at least.
The purest?
➔ ummm. i used to be able to name a few. but you know. things happen.
The smartest?
➔ still ryan. probably.
The most athletic?
➔ close friend prob anya
The most compassionate?
➔ anya: Shamu, so beautiful. cry* (sorry i had to)
The one most likely to get thrown in jail?
➔ justin. wait he already did.
The last one that said I love you?
➔ i guess helen? with sarcasm.

I don’t think it’s obvious or even possible to know definitively at the start.
Knowing is an evaluative conclusion that comes after the inevitable rough patches are successfully worked through.
You can only know you’re in love when the relationship is sorely tested, and you’re drawn closer together rather than pushed apart.

Emotion: Oceans of Motion,

Devotion to a Notion,

A Fool’s Love Potion,

Explosion, Implosion,

A Crowded Soul’s Commotion,

Crazy Movement, Hence ‘Loco’motion,

Abortion of Laws, a Flaw, Extortion,

Denotion Melodic, Logic’s Corrosion,

Contortion, Distortion of Constant Proportion,

The Brain’s Demotion for the Heart’s Promotion.

Emotion.

Monday December 6th 2010

1:00 A.M. Sewing

3:00 A.M. Bed

7:00 A.M. School

3:00 P.M. Work

6:00 P.M. Walgreen & Fabric store

7:00 P.M. Helen’s

9:00 P.M. Cake

10:00 P.M. ChinaTown/ Happy Zone KTV

Tuesday December 7th 2010

1:00 A.M. Cash Box

3:00 A.M. Back home/ sleep

6:00 A.M. School

1:00 P.M. home/ Shower

2:30 P.M. DECA/ Art meeting

3:00 P.M. Work

6:00 P.M. Presentation @ the Lib

7:00 P.M. College App/ Hw/ Sew

I am SO tired.